What on my mind??? urghhh...

Buset baru sempet update blog gua. Uda 1 bulan lebih gak ngeblog. Lagi banyak masalah jadi agak males ngeblog...

Lately i hate myself, why i'm become such a weak person. Yesterday when i check my fs, i see that he look my fs. Then i see his status is single. I just wandering why his status is single??? Is he hasn't married yet??? What happen???

My curious is killing me. I don't want to open his profile, i don't wanna him know that i look to his fs. I try hard not to klik his fs, but i really really want to know.. I said the hell lar if he know that i see his fs. Then i klik it and i read his testimonial from his friend.

What i see that he already married because his friend said congrats for the married. In fact i already know that he married but why his status is single that make me wonder is there something happen. And then i see his wife photo, i just compared with myself. I feel i much more pretty that her hehehe.. The hell lar...

Siapa suruh gua iseng2 buka fs dia lalu ngeliat kenyataan kayak gitu jadi bikin nih hati sakit lagi. Heran banget kenapa nih hati sampe sekarang masi sakit aja ya padahal kan uda lama uda hampir setaon lho tapi rasa sakit ini begitu ngeliat kenyataan masi blom bisa nerima jadi masi terasa sakit sampe sekarang. I hate myself like this...

Saking terlalu menghayatinya sampe sampe gua mimpi dia dateng ke gua mencoba untuk berteman dengan gua trus gua n dia jalan bareng berdua tapi jalan bareng bukan sebagai pacar lagi tetapi sebagai ex. Dimimpi yang sialan itu gua pergi sama dia n gua terlihat bahagia banget begitu jg dia. Duhhhh... kenapa sih gua musti mimpi begituan sama dia lagiiiii.... Seakan akan dan seolah olah tuh gua kangen banget sama dia. Ihhhhh sebellllll deh......

Apa sih yang gua pikirin slama ini sampe2 gua blom bisa melupakan dia??? Kenapa sih gua buka fs dia??? Kenapa jg dia buka fs gua?? kangen sama gua?? Penasaran sama gua??? Iiiiiihhhh......
Gua uda cukup sakit hati banget tau gak sama uuuuuu.... Jgn dateng dalam kehidupan gua lagi tauuukkkkkk......

Mungkin karena gua blom menemukan penggantinya dia. Yes that's must be the reason. Ok i will find my mr right... Gua akan mencari pengganti yang lebih baik dari u, lebih handsome dari u, pokoknya yang lebih lebih lebih deh dari u. Cuih.. who do you think u are??? I will forget all the thing about u... From now on... Change mode = on....
Looking for the new guy...
Ganbatteeeeeeee......